How sad it is…. I am exactly what I want, surrounded by the exact people that I want, yet my heart cannot enjoy it. They say “get into the present moment”. Blah, blah, blah. What if getting into the present moment, reveals only a heaviness, a pain that wallops my whole fucking core?
It happened exactly how it was supposed to do. A light shone into my wounds. Words stuck in the most painful places, that I even forgot were still there. It took a second to lose track of them, a second to lose any sense of control, and get to that bad, terrifying place that I never want to go back to.
The light shone into my wounds. So I can see them. I’ve been hiding them for so long. Yet, it would be impossible for them to heal if they stayed hidden. They must see the sun. The sun will shine light into them and even though at first you will feel that burn, you will cry, you will feel angst, you will ask for help, you will pray, begging God to take it away.. after a while, you soon will find out… the sun had just healed them.
They have now meddled perfectly with the surrounding skin.
You can barely see them.
The only thing is… even if it is hard to see them, they’ll always be there. And unless you shine light onto them, they will start re-appearing. The wounds will get crusty. And if you scratch them, just even a little, they’ll start bleeding.
So shine light onto them, pretty human.
Shine all the light.
You deserve to have soft, beautifully healed skin.
Shine all the light.
